I start my journey up one of the beautiful hills in Sedona with awareness and trust. It is May 2007, nine months after my sister died of metastasized breast cancer. I see a dead tree with arms up to the sky, like a yoga pose. I have a choice of two paths. I can’t see the end of either path. I can go to the right and have a steep climb, or I can choose to stay on the same level path. I choose to go to the right. I must see and feel this awesome place.
Now that I have climbed up here, I can see more clearly where I am going. Tears well up in my eyes and I cry with joy that I have come this far. It feels good to rest. I don’t need to go any higher now.
After my rest, I feel different about continuing to climb. It feels like something or someone is beckoning me to keep going and go higher. I don’t need to go back, not now. Slowly I move forward on my climb up. Where will it take me? Perhaps someplace magical… What is around the next corner?
Everywhere I look, something resembles something, a twisted branch lying between two trees. I look down at it. It is not an obstacle. I turn around and look up to find a bird scolding or praising me. I’m not sure which but he wanted to get a better look at me so he hops closer and closer until I can see his eyes. He definitely is giving me a message that he approves of what I’m doing. Then before I could get a picture he flies off with a mate.
As I continue to climb, I stop to look back to see where I was a few minutes ago. It looked out of reach a minutes ago and now I’m up here. It feels great that I’ve come this far. I find it is easier to climb up than to climb down.
Sometimes there are big boulders in the stream of life. Since I cannot move this boulder I will walk around it. Maybe I will lean on it while I contemplate where I want to go next. I walk again on the path provided for me, sometimes in the rain, sometimes in the sun, sometimes in the cool summer breeze and sometimes in the cold dark shadows of night. I feel awareness and trust that I am safe and secure. I listen and feel guided with messages I receive.
This is my path. Many times I experience joyful occasions where smiles come easily and I rejoice, hoot and holler and beat the drums loud! There are more of these times of happiness now that I have found love and love has found me.
To get to that state of love all you need to do is follow your path. Know that others have their path where some choose to take the dirt road or the slower way, others choose to take the highway and go at top speed. It doesn’t make a difference to you what others do . You are unique and you choose your life.
When your physical body finds it isn’t capable of doing what you would like to do, take a rest, reevaluate and find new or alternative ways and energy to enjoy every minute of each day. Choose to take one step at a time. or take a giant leap of faith. Either way, feel awareness and trust that you are exactly where you need to be right now. .